10// 28 July 2020

Tonight there was a blue whale in the middle of the road around the corner from my house. No one knew where it came from, just appeared there dead. I hauled ass to bunnings to buy 6 gas masks because the only way to clear the road would be to blow up the whale and that is going to stink for a long time. Plus I figure no one has thought about that yet but when they do it’ll be mayhem at bunnings so better be proactive and go now. So I get home and the whale is really starting to stink (not even blown up yet but you know, dead whale and all), chuck Adam his gas mask and take off to mums to get them theirs. They’re talking on the radio about people will be trapped in their homes as they’re closing a bunch of roads and people were starting to realize they would need gas masks so bunnings was getting crazy. Because the roads were going to be closed I called Adam and said figure out what you want for dinner and I’ll go get it now, then I went to the milk bar and loaded up on lollies (the important things). I spent $52 on lollies. Made it back home in time before the roads closed. Whale wasn’t blown up yet but they were talking on the radio about how that was the only option and the govt was sorting out how to do it. No one was asking where tf did a whale come from?! I called my brother and said I have a gas mask for you in case you end up smelling the whale in your side of the city too.

8// 20 July 2020

Another dream within a dream last night (why do I keep doing this?) The inside dream was me and Paul at a Reel Big Fish concert in the city, for some reason Adam stayed home (significant because there’s no way he’d miss a RBF concert), Jenn Kelberg was there too and she bought us shots which were very sweet. I got a bit of a thirst after that so went to the bar for more shots but they didn’t have anything decent so I went back to Paul and complained about Hoops not being open because of COVID. Later we find Daniel when it’s daytime and I tell them “I can get you home, I can fly and carry you” so I try but there’s power lines everywhere and I can’t get high enough. Then I assume I can go through the power lines because why would I have this ability if I can’t get high enough so I tell them we’re going through but I keep burning my hands so I give up and we decide to go by water. We get told we have to go under water and be careful of the underwater tornado, which you can only touch from the surface but it’s dangerous from the water. We find the tornado (which is always there it’s like a tourist attraction) and I lose Daniel and Paul when it passes over us. When I’m in the eye I can breathe and when it moves passed me I reach out to touch it and my hand passes through it like it’s made of nothing. Then I woke up (now in my level 1 dream). I look at my hands because they’re hurting and the back of my left hand is covered in a tattoo of a map of Melbourne CBD and there’s moving dots showing where I was the night before and Tasha Poesch too. There was a third girl but I don’t remember who that was. (Tash is a stronger personality lol). I can change the colour of the dots too by tapping on them, and I can make my dot a different colour to each of theirs, showing the path we each took in my dream. I look at my right hand and it’s covered in burns, from touching the power lines when I tried to fly and they manifested in “real life”. When I post about it on Facebook, Rochelle comments she had a dream about a concert too and calls it “our dream” thinking we dreamt about the same place. Later when I see her in person I’m trying to explain what happened but she gets dragged away. Adam tells me it’s just a dream, it’s no big deal and I’m like “look at my hands!” but he can’t see the scars or the images as they appear to me.

6// 24 June 2020

Last night I had to go into hospital for a procedure on my stomach. They tell you to make sure you take your own mask (cos of covid) so I’m freaking out the whole time cos you know when you go to sleep and one side of your nose always gets blocked so I’m thinking I’m going to suffocate while I’m under and they’re not going to notice; and the doctor was Chris Evans (Captain America) and when I get in there there’s 2 nurses, one young and one old, and old one injects Dr America with something and says ok let’s see how this goes; I ask her what was that and she says “it’s part of an experiment and the doctor has agreed to perform the operation while under a hallucinogenic” so I’m like “hang on, what?” And she goes “you’ll be fine he’s done some training for this and the nurse will be here too” so I’m starting to freak out a little and then the doctor injects the young nurse with something and I’m like “what was that one?” and old nurse goes “something different” so I’m like are you going to be sober for this and she’s like “yes but I’m not staying it’s just them 2” and fucking leaves! so I’m in theatre with a hallucinating doctor and a doped up nurse freaking out and also thinking I’m going to suffocate, trying to come up with ways of getting out of there so I’m thinking to myself “should I cough and freak them all out cos they will think I have covid?” then the doctor goes “ok let’s get out of here” and I’m like “what?” And he goes “I took a fake drug so they think I’m fucked up but I gave her (nurse) my drug and her’s so she can’t stop us” and he grabs my hand and we run out of theatre and I’m like “what tf is going on” and he goes “what they wanted to do was going to kill you and I’m not going to let that happen”, then we split up after he gives me directions to get out of the hospital by getting around by pretending to be a patient, and I can’t be seen with him because he’s supposed to be in theatre on drugs at that time; then I get lost in the hospital (as usual) and end up in a multi layer amphitheater (think Dante’s hell) and Alexander Skarsgård is there and I recognize him as the devil and he’s trying to sweet talk me into staying in the room going deeper down into the pit, as I’m keep trying to come up with ways of leaving the room. There’s people everywhere and there’s artwork and clothes for sale.